My Turn. 10/21/14

I've heard it said

That it can't rain

All the time

That the sun will

Fight it's way through

The darkness and 

The sun will find it's time

In which to shine

When

Will it

Be my turn 

To shine

I feel like I've fought my way

Through so much darkness 

That it's almost become 

Part of me. 

And change 

Has never been

Something in which

I seem to excel

But sometimes

I feel the light 

Trying to find it's way

Up and out 

Of this blackness

In which I've found myself

A home. 

Heaven Waiting 10/20/14

I held you close

In the early morning light

The world was calm

The moon still bright

You turned your head

You opened your eyes

And you smiled

So sweetly

It haunts me still

What was there 

In your mind

Inside that smile?

Did you already see 

Heaven waiting?

Pretend 10/15/14

I stand out in the rain 

Pretending 

That the baby I just held

Was my Kairi. 

He smelled so good

As babies do 

All soft and sweet

And I ache so badly

To hold my Kairi 

That I can hardly stand 

The pain

I wish

So badly

To feel her little body

Snuggled on my chest

The way she was 

The last time I held her

Not knowing it would be our last

And I remember 

How good she felt

And how precious 

Those last moments were

And I guard them 

In my memory

Because I was the one

Who held her

Who loved her 

As she slipped into

Heaven

And I was the one

Who will hold those 

Last fleeting moments 

In my heart and mind

Until I meet her there.