Everybody Elses Girl 10/19/17

I can't count them
The ones that bring me
Flowers that make me
So sick to see that I
End up burying them
At the bottom of my
Garbage can.

The ones that tell me
I'm beautiful
Because they choose not
To see the monster that
Lives just beneath my skin
That I feel inside
Every time
I hear how
Beautiful they think
I am...
Makes me sick
Because I lost any
Bit of beauty
I still had in me
The day I started
Making them all pay
For what should only
Be given in love

The day I became
Everybody else's girl
Maybe one day
I'll be my own...

Benediction 10/2/17

I feel my heart

Where there was 

Nothing but a 

Silent benediction

An empty echoing

Chamber where 

My love laid dried up

Withered... Dust 

Until you came along... 

And somehow,

Became the 

Benediction 

Without my realizing

It had even happened

Until it was too late

To stop it...

Too late