Tired 10/28/13

I mean really
I'm so tired of
This thing inside me
That allows me to
Have hope
To wish for
Things to get better
I wish I knew a way
To rip it out of me
Because I'm tired
Tired of allowing
Myself to wish for
A better life
That I'm just
Not allowed to
Have
Tired
Of allowing
Myself
To hope
Tired of finding
A way to start
Healing
And then seeing
It fall
Through my fingers
I'm just tired
Of it all