Once upon a time....
Here we go again...
Once upon a time there was a girl...
We'll start at age 7...
Two weeks before her 8th birthday
Her father walked out of her life
And changed her world forever....
Then we jump to 13
When one night she was just walking home
And she was jumped by two fucking fucktards
Who raped and sodomized her...
Two weeks after her birthday
And then when she was just 19
She had a child...
A beautiful angel that filled her world
With light...
With love...
Until
We jump to when she was introduced
To something called opiates...
Heroin
And she found ways to escape
The pain she'd held inside
Until it became her reason
And it became her normal
It became her daily...
Until things had to change
Or she'd die, and lose the one thing
She loved
And she did...
For years she stayed clean
And in that time
She had another child
Another beautiful soul
That she loved and cherished
Until...
She got sick...
Pneumonia...
Had surgery
Had chest tubes
Had a pain pump...
Filling her with poison again...
And within a three month span
She lost her entire world...
And it was entirely her own fault
Because she didn't fight
She didn't do the right thing
And make it right for her children
For herself...
She always believed she wasn't good enough
To have such a life...
So she became
A lost soul...
For a year...
And then,
Saw what she was doing and got help...
Got clean...
And then...
She met someone and found herself
Building her world around him
And his life, and his world became
Her safety zone
She was gifted with another
Beautiful life...
Another child to call her own...
Another chance to do SOMETHING right...
And her child...
Her infant...
Died in her arms...
Two weeks before
Her fucking birthday...
She should have seen it
The other shoe about to drop...
And she knows it's because
She was never meant to have
Such innocence and light
In her life again...
And it was proven when
She was cast out of the life
She'd allowed herself
To love
A lost soul once again...
Lost again
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