To My Mother. 6/18/14

Tonight you said something

I never thought I'd hear from you 

Something I didn't ask for

But receive with humility 

I once wrote

About how badly

I needed 

Your acceptance

So freely and 

Unwaveringly given

To others

But denied me

But I see now... 

It wasn't out of favoritism

Or because your

Heart lacked the love

I felt from you when 

I was younger. 

It's harder to accept

When you finally realize

You weren't worthy of it 

And won't be worthy of it

Until you're able

To prove yourself

And now that I'm getting 

To that point

I find myself 

Almost fearing

That moment