Mine 8/31/17

Every time I see you
It slams home the
Reality I've come to
Expect from life
The look on your face
That says you
See me
But you don't see me
You don't see how
Behind the facade
I yearn for you
I ache to make you
Smile at me
You make me want
To be a better
Person
But I can't show you
The me I want you
To see more than
Any other.
I can't show you
How badly
I want to
Call you mine

Landmine 8/30/17

I allowed myself
To care too much
And have stepped
Into a landmine
One I saw coming
A mile away
But was too full of
Hope
To make myself
Avoid the danger
And now
Standing poised
On the edge
Of annihilation
I find there's only
One place
I would rather be

In your arms

Crave 8/27/17

There are too many
Pieces of me
That I've lost
Along the way
Too many sides
To choose but
Very few
I care to be on
Except my own

Until you
Walked into my life
When it was so close
To ending
I could taste it
And craved its embrace

Until you
Gave me that smile
Free of charge
And made something
Wake up inside
The nothing
I've become

So that the only embrace
I crave now
Is yours

Evaluation 8/19/2017

So I lay here in my bed..
5 am
Hearing the morning birds
Bitching outside my window...
And I'm seriously thinking it's time
To to evaluate....
To take stock
Of the ones I want
To be in my life
Come daylight...

I don't even know anymore
Which ones are really my friends
Or which ones are my
Worst enemies....
But I do know this...
The one I absolutely despise
More than the rest
Won't stop smirking at me
From my bathroom mirror