Glutton for Punishment 9/12/17

There's something about
The way you make me feel
Because you make me feel
When no one else can
You touch something inside me
That I thought had died
The last time I had my heart
Handed back to me
In pieces

I guess I'm just a
Glutton for punishment

Cuz I know you will too
I know inherently
That you are only in my life
To show me
That I'm still capable
Of achieving
The myth
Of love

Yeah I said it

Love

But I don't know if
I am falling for you
Or the idea of you
What you have become
To me in such a short time

How I find myself
Holding my breath
When I hear footsteps
On my stairs
Because every time
I hope you'll be the one
Coming inside....

I know I'm broken
I know you don't see me
In the same light

But in the dark
Having you snoring
In bed beside me
Or laying in your arms
On our way to the moon...

Those stolen moments with you
Have become the highlight
Of my days

Watching you sleep
The way you look so
At peace
Because yes...
I laid there and
Watched you sleep
For a while...

I can't tell you
Any of this
Because I know
If I do
I'll have to sweep up
The last pieces of my heart
I gave you without
Your knowledge

So I spill my guts here
Because I find I'm choking
On the words I can't say
And I fear the day
They come spilling out

Confusion 9/1/17

I'm completely and totally
Confused by you
Baffled
Undone
Because there are so many
Sides to you
That I don't know
Which I crave more
The side that I found
Sleeping peacefully
In my bed this morning
Or the one I saw just
Moments after you woke

I have never wanted
Someone inside me
As badly
As I do
You...
But I find
You're already there
Because I see you
Every time I close
My eyes

I'd have given anything
To have been asleep
Beside you
To feel your arms
Wrapped around me
Protected
Safe

But I know
Deep inside
You don't want me
Not like I do you
And it cuts me
To the quick
When you
Disregard
My advances
When I can't give you
The ride you
Seek