Confusion 9/1/17

I'm completely and totally
Confused by you
Baffled
Undone
Because there are so many
Sides to you
That I don't know
Which I crave more
The side that I found
Sleeping peacefully
In my bed this morning
Or the one I saw just
Moments after you woke

I have never wanted
Someone inside me
As badly
As I do
You...
But I find
You're already there
Because I see you
Every time I close
My eyes

I'd have given anything
To have been asleep
Beside you
To feel your arms
Wrapped around me
Protected
Safe

But I know
Deep inside
You don't want me
Not like I do you
And it cuts me
To the quick
When you
Disregard
My advances
When I can't give you
The ride you
Seek