Someone Like You 4/7/15

I sit listening to music

And this song comes on

One I've heard a million times

And sung my guts out to

A million and one. 

And yet...

This time...

I listened

And I remembered

And it took on new meaning. 

You see...

I've been missing you 

As of late

Missing how strong you were

When our world fell away

When we lost our angel 

You stood strong

Until you couldn't hold it in

And you did what had to be done

And I don't blame you

Not one bit

I never deserved you 

To begin with

You and Kairi were a dream

I wasn't good or clean enough

To hold

And I still grieve 

For all I had

And all I lost 

When I lost you

You've moved on 

And from all I've been privy to

You're finally happy

And I have peace knowing that. 

Because you deserve it Jason. 

You deserve a good woman 

Who will make your world complete

You deserve to be a daddy 

No matter how it came to be

Now you have that chance and 

I swear to you on our daughters name 

That I wish you all 

Nothing but the best. 

I guess this is my goodbye 

To you... 

Even though you could care less

I need it said 

I need to give it voice 

Because I need to hear it louder 

Than the irrational hope 

That we could mend our 

Fucked up fences

And someday have a friendship. 

That's all I'd ever hope for 

Because in spite of it all

You were always

A friend 

Always someone I knew 

I could trust implicitly 

The last of the true 

Good men in the world 

And it's him I miss the most 

So in the words of Adele, 

"I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it... I'd hoped you'd see my face and be reminded that to me... It isn't over....

"Never mind I'll find someone like you...

I wish nothing but the best for you... Don't forget me I beg, I'll remember you said sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes hurts in stay."

"Nothing compares no worries or cares regrets and mistakes they're memories made, who would have known how bittersweet this could taste...."

Goodbye Jason

I wish you all the happiness

I couldn't give you

I wish that all the joy of being a father

That I was able to give you so briefly through our Kairi  

Lives on in your new angel.

And I wish you all the love I 

Tried and failed to show you 

Lives in every breath 

In your new relationship.