Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Someone Like You 4/7/15

I sit listening to music
And this song comes on
One I've heard a million times
And sung my guts out to
A million and one. 
And yet...
This time...
I listened
And I remembered
And it took on new meaning. 

You see...
I've been missing you 
As of late
Missing how strong you were
When our world fell away
When we lost our angel 
You stood strong
Until you couldn't hold it in
And you did what had to be done

And I don't blame you
Not one bit
I never deserved you 
To begin with
You and Kairi were a dream
I wasn't good or clean enough
To hold
And I still grieve 
For all I had
And all I lost 
When I lost you

You've moved on 
And from all I've been privy to
You're finally happy
And I have peace knowing that. 
Because you deserve it Jason. 
You deserve a good woman 
Who will make your world complete
You deserve to be a daddy 
No matter how it came to be
Now you have that chance and 
I swear to you on our daughters name 
That I wish you all 
Nothing but the best. 

I guess this is my goodbye 
To you... 
Even though you could care less
I need it said 
I need to give it voice 
Because I need to hear it louder 
Than the irrational hope 
That we could mend our 
Fucked up fences
And someday have a friendship. 
That's all I'd ever hope for 
Because in spite of it all
You were always
A friend 
Always someone I knew 
I could trust implicitly 
The last of the true 
Good men in the world 
And it's him I miss the most 

So in the words of Adele, 
"I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it... I'd hoped you'd see my face and be reminded that to me... It isn't over....

"Never mind I'll find someone like you...
I wish nothing but the best for you... Don't forget me I beg, I'll remember you said sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes hurts in stay."

"Nothing compares no worries or cares regrets and mistakes they're memories made, who would have known how bittersweet this could taste...."

Goodbye Jason
I wish you all the happiness
I couldn't give you
I wish that all the joy of being a father
That I was able to give you so briefly through our Kairi  
Lives on in your new angel.
And I wish you all the love I 
Tried and failed to show you 
Lives in every breath 
In your new relationship. 

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