Crisis averted...
Thank all that's holy...
I guess pure terror
Insomnia
And good ole fashioned
Stress will stop something
From being that
Wasn't meant to be...
If I hadn't already learned
That lesson...
It's been re-established
Fully this morning
I think Tori Amos
Said it best in her song titled
"Silent All These Years"
"Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you?
My scream got lost in a paper cup
Do you think there's a heaven where
My screams have gone?
I've got twenty five bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there?"
I fully believe
This wasn't supposed to be
And it would have resulted in
Disaster for an innocent child
And he wouldn't have been
Even remotely happy about it...
So I guess it's for the best
And now he can have what he wants
Me out of his life fully...
Fuck him....may every internal organ rot from the inside with the stench of his filth. You are better, you deserve better. Flush that piece of shit down the toilet, rise above and move forward.
ReplyDeleteI'm not angry at him... we're both grieving and neither of us are dealing well... this would have been a horror story come to life... and I hadn't even told him yet... but i know he wouldn't have wanted this... but there's no anger at him anymore over throwing me away... i understand in a way... it's for the best. They always say that a couple can either stay together or they will fall apart over the death of a child... and we just didn't make it... I still love him, his family, everything that I've now lost... I should probably be a little less vicious in my blog... but this is the only place I have to let shit out... you know?
ReplyDeleteHeather, your light, your heart is just like a beacon in the night for me... thank you for sharing it with me last night. I look so forward to our next get-together!!!
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