Dear Momma... (originally written 9/12/12)

Hello Mom, can you hear me?
I’m already on my way…
I’m sorry Daddy 
I know you don’t
Wanna hear the words I’ll say…

I’ve messed it up again…
Just didn’t work out some how…
So here I am 
I’m on my way
I’m ready to lay it out

I guess I’m broken inside
Way deep down where it counts
And nothing I try ever takes the time
And I’m saying please just count me out…

I’m falling down
The rabbit hole
Going back to where you go 
When you know you can’t go home.

I’ve burned it down 
And now I’m choking on the ashes
Of a life that never made me proud
I guess it’s over…. Count me out.

So hey there mom… I love you so
I’m sorry 
This came much too late
To save me from myself
To save me for myself

I’m falling down
The rabbit hole
Trying not to land face down
Going back to where you go 
When you know you can’t go home…
When you know you can’t go home…