The Monster In Me 10/10/12

There is a darkness
There is a rage
There is a monster
Coming out to play

I am not whole
I'm not what you need
I have an animal
Living inside of me

When do I free this
How can I let this go
This belief that I've
I've fallen
Down the rabbit hole
Again

Falling down the rabbit hole
Trying not to land face down
If you give me half the chance
   To breathe
I will get up off the ground
I refuse to remain
Locked inside this pain
I will demonstrate my ability
I'm giving over to the rage

There is a dirty bitch
Living deep inside my skin
There is a reckoning
Going on within

I am not clean
I'm not the girl you see
I am a portrait
Of what perfection
Will never be

When do I become the one
I was meant to be
When do I allow
My soul
To finally be free


So now I'm
Falling down the rabbit hole
Trying not to land face down
If you give me half the chance
   To breathe
I will get up off the ground
I refuse to remain
Locked inside this pain
I will demonstrate my hatred
I'm giving over to the rage


I am not whole
And I am not what you need
I know now
That I will never be

I am not good
I am not free
I have a monster
Locked inside of me